Stop! Just Stop!

Few days ago, I saw some random sharing on Facebook, of a woman breastfeeding her baby in Parlimen while delivering her speech. And whoever that shared the series of photos captioned the post, asking women to stop giving themselves excuses to leave their career and dreams behind to take care of their children, and only think about sweeping the floor and keep the house clean (something along this line).

This caption, needless to say, makes me uncomfortable.

While I think the mother's action is great and inspiring, I think it's not ok to shame mothers that stay at home to take care of their children.

There's NOTHING wrong to stay at home to take care of the children.

Let me say this again, NOTHING's WRONG!

We do NOT give up our dreams for nothing. It's for the kids, for the family. And who says we do not have our dreams, we have, we just hit a PAUSE for now, we'll get back to it when the kids grow up and care for themselves better. And sometimes, in between the "seems impossible to have time" me-time, we do our best to improve ourselves, work a little towards our dreams.

Trust me when I tell you all mothers who decided to stay at home took a big step. It's one of the hardest decision they have ever made and they took A BLOODY LONG time to decide this is it.

And sometimes mothers still feel a bit of self conscious, so it's no help when you shame them by saying "only think about sweeping the floor"! Excuse me, someone has to do the dirty job anyway!

Everybody has reasons behind the decision that you may not understand.

Please share some love, working mothers or stay at home mothers, they're all about hard work, dedication and love to the family.

Shame no more.


Feed The Mommy——Cheat Pizza or Wrap

When I cook for only myself, I like to cook as simple as possible, least effort required but still taste good.

I always turn to my mom (if I'm cooking Chinese food) and Pinterest if I need any inspiration. As I've taken too much pasta (and bacon!) in the previous weeks, last week I bought a packet of wrap, and there goes my life with cheat pizzas and wrap for lunch.

Cheat pizza is great, but I have no imagination and only made tuna pizza. That's absolutely boring. So I go to Pinterest and search for pizza toppings. And boy oh boy, I never regret!

Mushrooms, Cherry Tomato and Spinach on Sundried Tomato Pesto

Easiest of all
I've got this idea from here. I've always loved sundried tomato pesto but never have I thought of using it as the base of the cheat pizza.

I did not have basil, I used baby spinach to ensure I have my daily greens. I actually top baby spinach on the pizza after it's done baking but it wasn't show in the picture.

Instead of using just Parmesan, I used my premixed package of cheese, with cheddar, Parmesan and Mozzarella, used primarily for baking. I think this premix is the life saver for people like me who do not want to grate the cheese myself.

Smoked Salmon and Avocado Pizza

Colourful combi

A closer look
I've got this idea from here.

And again I made some changes on my own, based on whatever I have. I didn't have dill so I skipped it. I didn't mix the cream cheese with garlic, instead I just spread them separately in layers on top of my wrap. I used my premixed cheese, I didn't add onions because I was feeling lazy, I didn't have rocket leaves so again I used baby spinach.

Love every bite of this pizza! Will definitely do this again when there's any promotion on avocado!

Roasted Vege Wrap with Avocado

All the greens, made me feel so healthy :P
I've got this idea from here.

But if you noticed, the author of the page says avocado dip. Mine? It's just avocado. I was too lazy to whip up the dip and I like avocado, I'm confident that with just plain avocado it'll taste good too. And I'm right.

I didn't quite like cauliflower so I replaced with broccoli, I didn't have chili powder, garam masala etc, so I seasoned the chickpeas and broccoli with only pepper, salt and mixed herbs.

As you can see from the picture above, I made so much fillings, my wrap cannot be wrapper and I ended up eating it like a pizza 😅

Buy a packet of wrap (always buy garlic flavoured!) and give it a try! It's soo sooo soooooo convenient and you can still make yourself healthy meal.



最近和一位大学同学联络上,联络上的原因就是我频频在脸书和Instagram PO自己书写或涂鸦的一些卡片。没想到有时候这些卡片会引起一点点小注意,就有朋友开始问我,怎么做的,该买什么样的笔,等等的问题。









我也有这样的一天,用youtube来顾孩子 ~_~;


对他,他有更多的活动。如果在家里,我忙着看顾他两,还有家务,还要煮三餐,都是在survivor mode中度过,根本就没有时间给他活动。而且,现在在学校都肯睡午觉了,心里稍微安慰一点。






Feed The Mommy——My Very Own Version of Carbonara

I like carbonara, but I haven't been eating for a long time due to my pregnancy. (The egg used in carbonara is not fully cooked) Actually, pregnancy is not the only reason, I can't feed my son half cooked eggs too, so I actually haven't been eating carbonara for a long time!

I used to cook carbonara using Jamie Oliver's recipe. I roughly remember how, but I wanted to be sure so I tried to search for it. But I can't find it! Dang! So instead, I browsed around a few other websites, and decided to just make up my own.

And you know what? I like my version, so much so I'd like to write it down for my future reference.

Carbonara and a cup of decaf


  1. Two slices of streaky bacon
  2. Two cloves of garlic
  3. A handful of baby spinach
  4. An egg
  5. Mixture of parmesan, cheddar, mozarella and feta cheese
  6. A tablespoon of cooking cream
  7. Pasta of your choice
  1. Separate egg white and yolk.
  2. Add the cheese mixture and cream into the egg white.
  3. Dice the bacon and mince the garlic.
  4. Cook the pasta as per instructed on the packet and fry the bacon.
  5. As the oil from streaky bacon ooze out, add the garlic into the pan.
  6. At the last minute of your pasta cooking, add the spinach (you do not want to overcook them, so one minute is just nice)
  7. Drain the water from your pasta and spinach, keep some pasta water. 
  8. Add the pasta and spinach into the pan, stir them well so the pasta would soak the delicious bacon oil.
  9. Take the pan off the heat.
  10. Slowly pour the egg white and cheese mixture in and stir them well. (If you think it's too thick, you can add a little pasta water you keep, I usually don't)
  11. Serve the pasta in a plate, make a small hole in the middle and place the egg yolk.
  12. Stir the pasta and egg yolk well before you eat, the heat from the pasta will cook the egg.

I really like how creamy this pasta is. Besides, a plate of good carbonara and coffee for lunch, makes it feel like I'm having a luxury me time in a cafe! (Even though I'm just really rushing off to cook myself a meal when baby is sleeping!)


Happy Mother's Day

In the past 31 months of being a mother, I have never really thought too much about future. It struck me the other day when I was in shower, that these two babies in the house are going to stick with me forever! Like how my mom is stuck with us.


Family, a group of people whom we grow up with, without ever given a choice.

You can unfriend a friend.
You can befriend an enemy.
You can breakup with your boyfriend/girlfriend.
You can divorce your partner.
You can resign from you employer.
You can hate an idol you used to love.

There are so many relationships in your world that you can chose to be involved, but not family. And of all, the bond between a parent to children has to be the most intimate of all.

Whether she's a terrible mother or a terrific mother, she's always going to be your mother, forever.
Whether he's a terrible father or a terrific father, he's always going to be your father, forever.
Whether your children are naughty or nice, they will always be your children, forever.

No return policy. Not even customer service to complain.

As a relatively new mother, just a few months shy from 3 years, I really hope I did okay and will do better! And I know everybody says the same and I'm still going to say it, you only realised how much your mother went through when you're one!

Happy Mother's Day!




说没有心灰是自欺欺人的。但日子总要过,漫漫长路还是得对自己好一点。Happy Mommy, Happy Family。自己要不放宽心,连累家人就不好。这些日子以来,还是要称赞枕边人的坚强,往往在我面对不了的时候,鼓励我。最重要的一句话,“自己都照顾不好自己,怎样照顾好他?”


去年从新西兰回来,决定小孩不可以再这样下去,积极的寻找治疗。Early intervention七月开始,Physiotherapy 十月开始。一路走来,进步不少。从不敢走路,变成牵着手走路。从只敢在室内走路,慢慢延伸到室外。从到游乐场哭哭啼啼,到现在在不抗拒(还是不玩,但至少不哭)。


















今天他的情况改进不少,我躺在床上陪他。听见隔壁的小孩告诉拜访的亲友:“Last night the baby beside me almost died.”。是的,我的哭声,我的喊叫声,是谁都会以为是那回事。当我看着他痉挛三次,一天里面三次,我也以为我会失去他。叫一个小小的身躯怎样承受这种痛苦?









大儿子出世的时候,医院都是鼓励妈妈喂人奶的。住院的那两天其实还可以,孩子还是有吸的,虽然吸的也不是特好,至少在护士的帮助之下还是吸了。结果,出院当天因为儿子的黄疸指数偏高,需要留院照灯。多留一晚的他,护士用奶瓶喂奶,回家就不再吸(.)(.)了。严重到我一脱衣服他就哭。挣扎好久,最后我成了exclusively pump mother。因为奶水不足,所以六个月之内,都是人奶和奶粉混着喝。



隔一天,我为了自己的睡眠,用了几次奶瓶。结果,女儿就学会了咬!没有牙齿的她,都可以咬到我(.)出血!痛不欲生啊!所以,我又再一度成为exclusively pump mother。









原本啊,周六我还打算吃点心,吃mac and cheese,吃这吃那……结果,计划赶不上变化,女儿迫不及待见我们,我也就尝试了一次顺产。







我生活的Reset Button又来了!



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我在网上完成了两个简单的网络课程,一个是Introduction to Graphic Design, 一个是Introduction to Typography。
之前买了acrylic paint,只画过两次。
我还想尝试Adobe Illustrator来玩玩。






A Moment We've Been Waiting For

Yes, just walking into the classroom leisurely with new Mickey backpack

We've been waiting for this day to happen, to see our son walks independently. He is currently 2 years and 3 months old.

Have you seen movies where the parents were so happy when the baby makes the first step? Yea, it's not like what I have ever imagined. Our baby boy never did make a clear line of when was the day he finally took his first step.

He's been cruising around since... I can't even remember. He's been cruising long enough. And when I brought him to Sydney, he walked if I held his two hands behind him, he even chased seagulls like that. And then slowly we held one hand. And, we stuck at that stage for a very long time too. Then one fine day, he walked two steps towards me when I'm helping him to work out and warm up his muscles. And that too, we were stuck there for a long time.

And then two steps became three, became five, became ten, gradually. And finally this year, he walks into the classroom on his own. From the beginning of the year till this Wednesday, he still needed a lot of encouragement. I always drop him early, always one of the earliest to reach the center. And teachers are still not occupied at that time, and they form such an entourage. One will be helping him with his stuffs (parents are not allowed to accompany the child into the classroom), one will be in front of him to encourage him, to assure him that if he falls she'll be there, one will be at the side, one at the classroom calling his name etc. It is always a BIG thing when he walks in, every single time.

And this Wednesday, as I was talking to the director of the center, the teacher told me, he's already in the room. Whoa! That's my boy! And I thought, the backpack I ordered last month can finally be in good use! I've been waiting for this moment! This backpack is to symbolise that he finally made it, on his own! But unlike the movie, no tears, no drama, just simply happy and grateful.

Grateful that it finally happens! Grateful that it pays off, all our effort! Grateful that we've got all these helps from therapists and teachers!

Good job my boy! Good job!


Mother's Luck, Mother's Instinct

My son is sick again. He has a tendency of febrile seizure when his body temperature goes too high or changes too quickly. We hate having him fever, not that any parents would like it, but when fit is in the equation, there's even more reason to hate!

He had blocked nose after we came back from Penang. We've watched him carefully, and yesterday the blocked nose seem to get better. We thought it is a relief. But we did notice he kept drinking water. He hates drinking water. But since very young, every time before he falls sick he would drink a lot, and double eyelid would develop. Now that the double eyelid is fully permanent, it's no longer an indication.

We all went to sleep like our usual arrangement. We on our bed, he in his baby cot right next to me. Peacefully, or so we thought.

In my sleep this morning, 6.33am to be exact, I heard his voice, but not the usual one. I did not know what caught me, I jumped up immediately and shouted to The Man to switch on the lights. And we caught him in the middle of the fit. The Man acted quicker than I do as usual, he handled everything while I watched the time, prepare medicine, water, wet handkerchief, everything to pat the temperature down.

When everything is under controlled, I can only say, I'm relieved and I'm shocked. I'm relieved that with pure luck and instinct as my friend said, I managed to hear the little noise from him in my deep sleep. I'm shocked that, what if I didn't catch it, what if none of us hear it, what will happen!!!

I'm keeping him close tonight when I sleep. Real close.

I love him no matter what, I want him to be strong, healthy and happy. He's always my baby.

A collage auto created by Google Photos, my lovely dearest son