What They Never Told You About Having Children

I am at the age most of my Facebook feeds are about babies and parenting. It's flooded with all the cute babies photos, proud parents showing us that the kids are achieving their milestones, or just plainly being cute. I am one of them, but frankly, I didn't get to show about developmental milestone.

He's been lagging behind.

So this is what nobody will prepare you for when you're pregnant. Because frankly, when you're carrying a baby, would you like to hear:"Be careful, don't be over excited and putting on too much hope, you never know what baby will turn out to be, baby may have issues you know?"

And that is exactly what happened to me. He's all cute and chubby, but, he's all lagging. In every aspect, i.e. fine and gross motor skills, speech, social skills. We sent him to early intervention centre when he's about 21-22 months old. Yes we've seen improvements but I need more because I am worry all the time. And let's be honest, if I have all the time and all the money, he should be doing physiotherapy, occupational therapy and speech therapy on weekly basis now. But he's not.

I try to tell myself, let's start with physio, the gross motor. Then we worry about the fine motor, and then, we will worry about the speech.

You can't force him.

You have to wait for him.

You're doing well, just keep going.

You're fine and he will be too.

I have to brainwash myself all these very frequently. Because, especially lately I've been stressing myself a lot. Breakdowns, breakouts (on my face), emotional swings have happened a little too much.

So this is what they never told you about having children. Things do go south, and sometimes south all the way...

Keep going, you're doing well.

Things will turn out well.

两周岁了～

好多礼物，好多气球，好多食物！

上个星期，我儿子终于两岁了！他不高不矮，不胖不瘦，刚刚好的一个两周岁的小男孩。不再是baby了。

今年和去年一样，我们都在槟城给他庆祝。今年我还在淘宝淘了十二个可爱的动物造型气球。面对满屋的家人亲戚，满桌的食物，满地的气球和礼物，还穿上外婆买的水手装，多高兴！无他，他就是喜欢热闹。

玩水乐～

这次回家比较久，大姨送的水池派上在炎炎的夏日派上用场。连续两个周末都请两位表姐一起玩。三个瓜在小小的水池玩的很开心。虽然我们觉得水池很小，但小孩其实一点都不介意。玩到高声尖叫，搞到隔壁的三姐妹羡慕不已。水池真的很小，我也不能邀请他们。

没有水池，洗澡也不错。

这个周末，很可惜的我和妈妈得到了红眼症，所以不敢请表姐们来。儿子只好自己玩。你看，小小的水桶，一样高兴。小孩是很容易满足的！

不知不觉中，这个小瓜已经不再（强烈）需要我。我红眼症的那几天，不好意思到家婆家，但是祖父母爱孙心切，旅行回来好想看孙，所以我就把儿子寄在家婆家吃晚餐。我跟他解释的时候，他是不愿意的，嘴嘟嘟，有点生气。不过当大家陆续下班回家，他就忘记了。婆婆喂他吃饭，姑姑喂他吃苹果，姐姐给他唱歌，大家称赞他好孩子，高兴的他都忘了妈妈是谁。晚上送他回来，还兴奋到睡不着～

真没想到，两岁一过就突然长大了。

两岁了，无他，就只求他健康快乐。为母的都会明白。