两个月大

开开心心两个月

开心的宝宝

从大约七周大，宝贝开始懂得微笑多一些，再也不再是那个很凶的婴儿。每天早上起床，已不再是撕破喉咙的哭喊。换来的是他对着他的好朋友——米奇老鼠，咿咿呀呀的聊起来。如果真的没人理会他，他真的太闷了，才开始吵着讨抱。要不然就是饿了才哭。

家外有个小院子，当初姐姐一心一意坚持要有张小桌子，可以在那儿吃早餐喝下午茶。也因为她的坚持，这就是我们最爱的早餐spot。宝贝也常常伴随我们，坐在院子里吃早饭喝喝茶。不知多享受！

睡眠

依据BabyCenter的解说，只要宝宝晚上可睡5-6小时，就称之为sleep through the night。根据这个解释，宝贝一个半月就已经sleep through the night。但对我来说，好像还不是呢！半夜三点钟起床不算咯！如果可睡上7个小时，我可乐了！（悄悄说，今天睡了7个小时。但是我不知道是不是因为吃了化痰药才那么好睡，有待观察）

喝奶

他两个月大了，也就意味着我这个pump mother已经进入第三个月。当初以为第一个月之后就会停止，不知不觉时间还是过了。会喂到几时还不知道。现阶段住在家里，事事有人帮忙，要pump也没那么难。将来回到新加坡，看来就比较困难了。倒是整个大白天，就是我和宝贝对望，有没有时间pump，这真难说。至于latch on的训练，暂时还是不太成功。这小瓜进步了，他也不吸，也不哭，就是不动，傻傻的和我对望。望久了，我也没办法，就放弃！真厉害！

My Breastfeeding Journey as of Now

Breastfeeding has begun to pick up its popularity in recent years. It's said to be the best that a mother can give to her baby, so much so sometimes it creates stress to some mothers.

My little one stayed one extra night in hospital while I was discharged due to jaundice. During the particular extra day, he was fed formula and some of my expressed breastmilk through syringe. Since then, he hates my nipples.

It has been difficult for him to suck properly because my nipples are a little short and flat. And ever since the extra night he stayed, he refused to latch on. He has "evolved" so much from our breastfeeding training sessions, towards the end he cried on the first sight I took off my clothes! What a clever boy, I was frustrated but at the same time found it very funny! (You've got to learn how to make some jokes out of yourself)

Then, I became an exclusively pump mother. It's hard sometimes because the supply is not as much as we want. And even baby has started to sleep 5 hours straight at times, I can only get at most 4 hours. And there are so much work after pump, the washing and sanitising,  and the caring for my precious breasts.

So many problems come along with breastfeeding, blocked duct, nipple crack, sore nipples, abrasion etc. I've had all of them in one month and before my son even reached his full month I've already considered stopping. But like all mothers, we believe it's the best, we hesitated. Then, things got better and I continued.

Every single time I have problems with my nipples, I doubt myself, how long will I continue. How many times should I endure such hardship? How much is enough? However, at times I do feel good about being a pump mother, when I feel tired or when I need to be out, my family can just warm the milk that I've pumped and stored to feed. I do not have to be the only one to care for him.

My helpful friends added me into some of the breastfeeding groups on Facebook. Sometimes I found some helpful notes but after a very short time I found it super annoying, 99% of the time. A lot of the mothers are highly against the idea of formula feed. They condemned mothers who top up with formula milk, as if the mothers are the worst mothers of all. My mother fed us with formula, full formula, all the three of us. We grew up just fine and we're all having very close relationship with my mother. And I think my mother is the best!

There's nothing wrong with formula milk! Please do not make mothers who feed the baby formula milk any worse than a fully breastfeed one. Breastfeeding does not come easy for all the women, so do respect them for whatever reason they've decided to stop.

The most fulfilling part of being a mother, now I'm one of them, is to see my baby grow well. The best moment of all, is my baby smile to me happily and wanting to play with me. All these, have nothing to do with breastmilk or formula.

At his 7th week, he's all happy to play with me :)

Whether you formula feed or breastfeed your baby, most importantly is to have good communication with your family members, especially the husband for best support.

My man has the best philosophy about feeding the baby, he says, "If you're too tired and you're facing so much problems, you won't be well enough to take care of yourself and the baby. Life is not just about pumping milk. As long as it's taking its toll on you, stop it."

I'm still a pump mother now. I do not know how long I'd like to carry on but I know I will not feel any guilt when I decided to wean. Nobody should.

男人

下班回家，把宝宝牢牢抱着的爸爸

孩子是这样被宠坏的。平时因为工作时间长，男人在家的时间少，很少和宝宝亲子乐。所以下班回家，就把宝宝牢牢抱着。抱着他入睡，才把他放上床。结果，可苦了我和妈妈，大白天男人不在的时候，宝宝也讨抱，我们累得⋯⋯

我的生产过程非常不容易。周一一大早入院催生，催了一整天都没有结果，我还去医院旁的商场逛逛。周二再继续催，早上好几个小时都没有动静。我们就干脆一点，跟医生说，这个再不行我们就开刀吧。不知是否听见开刀吓坏了肚子里的宝宝，没两下就开始阵痛。

心想这下可好了，快生了。但天不从人愿，我的阵痛维持了10个小时，才好不容易等到可以开始push的时候。

我真不知道没有epidural怎么生孩子。到三公分的时候，我已经痛到想死。和护士说我要epidural。但是，产房不够，再加上麻醉医师太忙（同一天总共有七个宝宝出世），我苦苦疼了一个小时以后，麻醉医师才终于出现。打了针以后，我真觉得那是伟大的发明，我竟然可以睡去。还有办法和朋友用whatsapp聊天，向他们报告最新状况。

到了晚上9点，我终于都dilate了10公分。医生把麻醉药减低，好让我push的时候，可以感觉得到。不过，不知道是麻醉药太厉害，还是我的阵痛因为催生药的减去而渐渐失效，抑或是我太累了，我feel不到。结果，我总共push了两个小时，医生在最后关头也没法子，叫更多医生和护士进来帮忙。我的孩子，是护士用力从我肚子推出来的！

生完孩子以后，麻醉药的side effect再加上太累，我整整吐了三次。吐出来的，都是深青色的胃酸。(e_e)

从周一开始到终于把孩子生出来的整个过程，男人都陪伴在身边。除了吃饭时间，我都叫他出去走走吧，慢慢吃了再回来。在我开始阵痛的时候，男人负责帮我按摩，伸出双手让我抓着，弄些好笑的让我转移目标等⋯⋯打麻醉药的时候，也抱着我让麻醉医师可以准确的把麻醉针打下去（不然终生下半生麻醉就惨了）。Push的时候，他也不畏惧那血淋淋的场面，和医生护士们一起帮我把孩子生下。回到家里了，也是男人每天帮我敷药才上班。

整个过程，我也看得出男人的担忧。担心宝宝出了什么问题。也看得出他的心疼。

虽说，生产过程最伟大的还是妈妈（自夸！），爸爸这个角色也少不了。如果不是男人全程陪伴，全程鼓励，我真担心自己熬不过来。

各位男人啊，如果你是准爸爸，记得记得，不管你有多怕，尽可能都陪老婆进产房。老婆比你怕，比你痛，你应该进取鼓励鼓励她！就像我家里的男人。

靠山

几乎每个出世的小朋友，都有祖父祖母、外公外婆做靠山。坐月期间，祖父祖母和外公只是来探望，不够时间把小宝宝宠坏。外婆因为负责帮我坐月子，因此整整一个月的时间，好好的把小宝宝宠一宠。

小宝宝应该是知道谁会把他宠坏，谁会在他哭泣的时候不管什么事情，就先把他抱起来再说。外婆的声音和拥抱，就像魔术一样，可以瞬间把哭泣的宝宝，安抚下来。他好像就是等着那一刻，等他的靠山来救他。 我们在家，都管妈妈叫“magic”，少爷的magic。

外婆喂我喝奶，我很幸福

紧紧的靠在外婆的身上

接下来的日子，外婆不再与我们同住，看来我的日子不好过。

Cutest Thing

I personally think a baby's yawn is the cutest thing of all.

*Yawn*

I'm 19 Days Old

19 days old

Hi everybody, I'm Bey Jr.

Everybody has been anticipating my arrival on 25th of September, however, I stayed cuddle in my mommy's belly for additional 5 days until her doctor successfully induced the labour, after trying hard for two days.

I've caused so much suffer and pain to my mommy, she was in pain for 12 hours before my head pop out with gynae's warm welcome. My mommy has lost all the strength to push after 12 hours in labour and only 2 slices of bread before all these have started. My head was stuck at the exit point for too long and my heartbeat dropped. It made everybody in the delivery room so concerned, especially my papa. Doctor finally called for more people to help my mommy. At least a team of 10 were helping mommy to push me through the exit point.

The moment I came out, papa and mommy can't help to notice I was partially covered with my own shit. Mommy was relieved I was crying even though not hard enough, and she was also relieved all these 12 hours pain had finally come to an end. She was so funny she was laughing and crying at the same time. I think she's confused of what she should be feeling.

I looked funny the moment I was born. My head was pointy like an alien after suffering through the birth canal (mommy, you should have pushed harder and faster!), the nurses assured my papa my head will return to normal.

Now that I'm 19 days old, I started to understand things more clearly. I know how to wail for things I want, for example, milk, milk now! And I demand to be cleaned fast, faster and faster! Why are my mommy and papa cleaning me so slow?!!!!

At times, when they have done everything right, I reward them with 15-20 minutes of peace, by staring at them, listening to them singing to me.

When they can't handle me, when everything fails, they bring me to Ah Ma, somehow Ah Ma's voice calm me down faster than anything. I bully my mommy and papa, but I can't bully my Ah Ma.

But no matter what, I know they love me. And I love them too!